“I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness the astonishing light of your own being.” (Hafiz, Persian mystic, in the 1300’s)
I believe this in a deep spiritual way. Some of us live in loneliness or darkness. Others have fleeting or extended periods of our lives that seem to be taken over by these feelings. How do we get in touch with this astonishing light that Hafiz refers to? When we turn and face the loneliness, the darkness of our being, we may discover a part of ourselves that we never knew existed.
Lately I have been obsessed (more so than usual) with creating something every day. This week I created two quilt tops that I may make up into one quilt, using one of them as a ‘back’. Both are pictured here. When I am sewing, creating (writing, painting, gardening, etc.), time flies past and I forget even to eat.
I needed a small strip of fabric to fill in some black space and picked up a scrap piece off the floor. I went to iron it out, planning to applique it onto the quilt top. As I ironed this small snippet of fabric, about 1/3″ x 5″, I began to read what was printed on it: “… went in search of her soul. Stitch by stitch she pieced her soul together.”
No, I am not kidding.
In Anne Lamott’s book on writing, Bird By Bird, she says over and over that for writers getting published is not the goal. Writing is. Writing, creating anything, is a royal road to the soul, where your true self resides.
How do you get in touch with your true self, that “astonishing light”?